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Monument by CinderDragon Monument :iconcinderdragon:CinderDragon 1 0 Kindling by CinderDragon Kindling :iconcinderdragon:CinderDragon 1 1 Solar Rain by CinderDragon Solar Rain :iconcinderdragon:CinderDragon 2 0 Amidst the Leaves and Sunlight by CinderDragon Amidst the Leaves and Sunlight :iconcinderdragon:CinderDragon 2 0 Secret Place by CinderDragon Secret Place :iconcinderdragon:CinderDragon 1 0 Autumn Leaves in a Puddle by CinderDragon Autumn Leaves in a Puddle :iconcinderdragon:CinderDragon 3 0 Dusty Rose by CinderDragon Dusty Rose :iconcinderdragon:CinderDragon 2 0 Lense Tilt Experiment, Country by CinderDragon Lense Tilt Experiment, Country :iconcinderdragon:CinderDragon 1 0 Wet Blue Flowers by CinderDragon Wet Blue Flowers :iconcinderdragon:CinderDragon 4 3 Sit Here by CinderDragon Sit Here :iconcinderdragon:CinderDragon 1 0 Sanctuarium by CinderDragon Sanctuarium :iconcinderdragon:CinderDragon 0 0 Blood Orange by CinderDragon Blood Orange :iconcinderdragon:CinderDragon 0 0 Molten Gold by CinderDragon Molten Gold :iconcinderdragon:CinderDragon 0 0 Wet Clover by CinderDragon Wet Clover :iconcinderdragon:CinderDragon 1 3 And The Clouds Were All Alight by CinderDragon And The Clouds Were All Alight :iconcinderdragon:CinderDragon 12 3 Porthole to the Sea of Green by CinderDragon Porthole to the Sea of Green :iconcinderdragon:CinderDragon 2 0


Fire Dragon by spirit-warri0r Fire Dragon :iconspirit-warri0r:spirit-warri0r 436 48 Enforcer by OmeN2501 Enforcer :iconomen2501:OmeN2501 9,647 596 Winter Wallpaper III by SvenMueller Winter Wallpaper III :iconsvenmueller:SvenMueller 2,876 271 Explorer by MoaWallin Explorer :iconmoawallin:MoaWallin 270 95 Vertigo by Al-Baum Vertigo :iconal-baum:Al-Baum 7,266 634 Tog by Al-Baum Tog :iconal-baum:Al-Baum 281 40 The Drop by AdamBurn The Drop :iconadamburn:AdamBurn 1,941 230 The Connection by Novawuff The Connection :iconnovawuff:Novawuff 1,727 125 Fly. by MacRebisz Fly. :iconmacrebisz:MacRebisz 50 22 Tree House Wallpaper by eclipsy Tree House Wallpaper :iconeclipsy:eclipsy 606 163 random stuff by Tonyholmsten random stuff :icontonyholmsten:Tonyholmsten 4,528 138 After the Rain by TysonTan After the Rain :icontysontan:TysonTan 11,591 644 Welcome to the Jungle by Syntik Welcome to the Jungle :iconsyntik:Syntik 776 173 Light of the Emperor by kingmong Light of the Emperor :iconkingmong:kingmong 2,280 268 In the emperors light by StTheo In the emperors light :iconsttheo:StTheo 2,855 644 Symmetry by AF--Photography Symmetry :iconaf--photography:AF--Photography 229 64


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Crystal Ann by werol Crystal Ann :iconwerol:werol 5,131 528 DRACONIS INFERNVS II by Deligaris DRACONIS INFERNVS II :icondeligaris:Deligaris 4,104 889 Tiger in Water 3 by Art-Photo Tiger in Water 3 :iconart-photo:Art-Photo 424 58 Tiger Lullaby by pixely Tiger Lullaby :iconpixely:pixely 892 109 Samurai Spirit 5 - Slasher by Artgerm Samurai Spirit 5 - Slasher :iconartgerm:Artgerm 17,929 1,811 Cold City by mortalitas Cold City :iconmortalitas:mortalitas 1,442 307 Focused by arcipello Focused :iconarcipello:arcipello 1,491 341 Shen Ku - The Dark Samurai by arcipello Shen Ku - The Dark Samurai :iconarcipello:arcipello 4,315 616



Right turn★wrong universe
United States
Lately, I've begun to think about this account and the art I have submitted to it. It's been a long time since I've uploaded anything and I've never been active in the community. Some people might be content to let their account collect dust rather than lay it to rest properly. I am not one of those people. It just feels wrong to have created this little page for myself and then to abandon it without saying anything.

I'm not quite sure of what I expected to get out of joining Deviant Art over seven years ago. I think I just wanted someone beyond my immediate family to see my art and acknowledge it in some way. I do recall the handful of times I logged in to see a comment or favorite and the warm fuzzy feeling that followed.

It's hard to say when but, at some point, I became more interested in making art to post here than as art for the sake of art. The simple childish joy of photographing desert flowers in Joshua Tree Park shifted to a need for attention, for acknowledgement. I became more concerned with what people on the internet would think of my work rather than what I though of it.

I can't remember the last time I worked on something for my own enjoyment without planning on presenting it to the world, titling it, coming up with a unique artist statement. The last time I even went on a shoot was almost two years ago.  I can't help but worry that I've lost any desire or patience to make art. Strange, considering that I originally intended to go to college to study art.

I won't delete my account, simply because of the handful of favorites I have received. Who knows? Maybe one day that person will scroll through their favorites and see that one has been removed. They probably won't even be able to remember it but they will definitely wonder what it was. I wish for them to avoid that little moment of sadness. The same goes for any work with a comment on it. Deleting it would seem an insult to the commenter somehow. I will simply delete anything that I was never really proud of and things I submitted just so they could be seen.

Maybe someday I will pick up my camera again or mess around in photoshop a bit. I've been struck with creative urges before, after all. But, if that happens, I think I'll keep the result for myself. My art needs to be for myself, first and foremost.


- CD


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l337a Featured By Owner Oct 25, 2009
Neat stuff you have here. Good work. :)
CinderDragon Featured By Owner Nov 6, 2009
Thanks! I like those Hexa world things you do.
l337a Featured By Owner Nov 6, 2009
I'm glad you like them! :)
LINCARD1000 Featured By Owner Oct 24, 2009  Hobbyist Writer
You have some beautiful photography here... really lovely.
CinderDragon Featured By Owner Nov 6, 2009
Thank you. I'd compliment you on your book if I had actually gotten around to reading it. In all likely-hood, it will happen sometime over winter break.
LINCARD1000 Featured By Owner Nov 6, 2009  Hobbyist Writer
:-) I don't have expectations that people will read the stuff I've written. If they do and enjoy it - bonus. If not, well so be it.
AF--Photography Featured By Owner Mar 23, 2009  Hobbyist Photographer
thank you very much for the :+devwatch: :)
Artelfic Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2007  Professional General Artist
thx for the fav :damphyr:
gigighost Featured By Owner Feb 25, 2007
Looks like you're loved by alot of people. You shouldn't be so dissapointed. In fact, you should read some of these comments :P
scott5353 Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2007
Thank you for faving Last To Leave.
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